Hey!!! i'm baaaack...with no new pics x.x. I've been going to swim practices and mega (plus the school work/projects/ preparing for specialized high school entrance exam/ Regents sci|Spanish|Math|English?) so theres really no time [maybe after high school exam] ...well anyhow i've gotten hooked on HANA KIMI!!!! *Japanese version, Taiwan's version's pretty bad* . Probably the first time i got sooo addicted to a show xDD;;; ITS REALLI GOOD! GO WATCH IT!




[waiting for final hana kimi ep ><] go to Mysoju.com for it! ^-^

will draw soon, getting new laptop tmmr (FINALLY! ZOMFG), will scan in after i get laptop hooked to scanner nd get new ink for printing (in general). sry for lack of updates lol. I'll probably be moving most pieces to scraps. night night <3

oly crap...my friend wrote some of my previous journal O_O;. nd i gave my art teacher teh site o.o;;;;;;;; mT-Tm gomen!!!! EEEEEE i'm so screwedddd stupid stupid...cant say her name. grrr not letting her on my acc anymore!!! ok sooo taking classical?...art lessons from my mom's friend. Its fun...i guess...really fustrating! yes i did draw fishing boats err....aha i guess i only finished one piece from drawing class . I'ma...slow poke at drawing >.> nd my teacher= ZOMG draws so well... ><;


venting...ok i hate the fact that i keep seeing boundaries even though there are no real boundaries when you're drawing. I hate the fact that my ideas can't even take form, everyone keeps saying that my art, sketching and what not is pretty good for my age (uhm didnt post up any, too big for scanner) but I hate it. None of them are what I wanted them to be and all of my ideas turn out half done or just crumbled up into a little ball and thrown into the waste basket. I know taking these art classes will build on my art skills and what I already know etc etc but its just sooo....pressuring? I want to draw freely and draw what I want/feel but when I do, I quit half way and hate what the outcome (half...outcome) lcomes out as because its not me, or something... I try finishing it but it just comes out so...bad and not what I wanted. I don't even know if any of this makes sense cuz the t.v's on and...cant...concentrate.Sometimes when I half to draw or start drawing (hw or something), I just get...mad...duno why. I've been told to just draw, draw what you see and just...just let go and draw but usually i end up paper balling the piece -.-. Just so confused right now


nananannana...

Sorry, I was pretty much dead for ...1/2 ish months. ._.; So umm...how's everybody? o__O hehe...yea....i've seriously made about 5 fast copies of the original piece I was going to submit because I was afraid to mess it up ._. so I didn't finish it yet. To tell the truth, I havent really been working on it and my cousin also forgot about it. (she prefers clothes ) heh. If anyone wants to see the lineart then please leave a comment saying so under this entry okie? ^^ it's 11pm and I should really be asleep, me gots school tomarrow =0 < shocking! x) My school orchestra had to preform twice today for the school and I have to do another preformance tomarrow at 7. (The heels <= shoes=> are killing me feet! ;_ *sigh*

well...goodnight! ^-^

Wow...I can like NO IDEAS coming to me lately. I haven't been slacking though. I've made a few drawings [of which I considered all to be crap] so i'm not going to post them . The State math exams are over!! YAYY!!! Now I won't have to stay up every single night studying until 3 am with my dad :] <<= he can get really deep into a math problem and the nonstop talking makes me reeallly drousy so I end up going "...I DONT GET IT O_O" >.> eh..hehe.


There is one that I might post up. It's a late present to my cousin Cissy (cough butthole) x) . I still love uuuu! lol. I did not draw it in my style. I changed the style of the drawing because she does not like anime. So...if I do post it, please don't comment saying "OOMG YOU TOTALLY STOLE THAT" or "OMFG YOU DIDN'T DRAW THAT, IT DOESNT LOOK LIKE YOUR OTHER DRAWINGS" or...something.


I am soooo sleep deprived!! ...It's not even funny. I'm lucky to even get 4-5 hours each day ;_;. (Reason: I study my ass off for tests because my pea sized brain cant handle much input) x_x and even so...I end up with a 80 or 94 while everyone else goes hopping around with their 100's and 98s ;_;. pooh.


and a little part of Cathy's 13th birthday:
*balloon crazy====~*
me: *grabs 2 balloons* OMG I GOTS 2 HUGE BOOBIEEESS!!
cathy *cracks up*
kristin: OMG STEPHHH -.-
me:.....
MG I GOTS 2 BIGGER ba....[can I say that word here? o.o;] AHAHHAHA :! *pokes butt* SSSSIIZLEEE!!!
someone: "THEIR SO COLORFULLLL"
me: ahahah perty balls...I mean...balloons :] *tries to stuff under shirt* ....my shirt's not big nough
linda: stuffs under shirt "BABIEEESSS"


and for some reason I want to end this entry with these words:
I am unbelievably stupid. >______<;
ummm...have a nice day? O_o x]